Giving up

I'm assuming this is going to be the first entry that actually reflects the title of the blog. Yen in the web address may define yearnings or something i really desire, whereas the title part "frustrating world" talks of the actual situation on the ground in reaching my yen.
There is always something i seem to get wrong when it come to relationships, because i cant understand why other people get it good and I'm the only one who seems to be always on the outside looking in. Its really pathetic and sad.
I always stare into the mirror looking for signs of deformity or a tail. You know its really a horrible thinking maybe there's a monster in you everyone notices except you, because you know deep down you are a sincerely nice person without any baggage...maybe except the baggage that nobody wants you. It kills inside and sometime you don't want to wake up sometimes, because you are that kid in the candy shop without any money, you can see it and smell it, but you cant have it.
You know, all i wish is someday a girl would look at me and take the time to realize, in here lies a pretty awesome dude who is just looking for somebody who will just take the extra time to realize there is something really special and unique, just waiting to be dug up.